With the weekly workload, travel planning for Christmas break, coordinating next semester in France (will I have a designated roof over my head when I arrive on campus, for example), job applications for next summer, being in a foreign country away from friends and family, and the other stresses in my life right now, I am overwhelmed. Whenever this kind of malaise hits I get pangs of homesickness but today has been particularly wearing, for no reason other than that I’ve had time to blubber a little more than I’d like.
Like any other reasonable person, I enjoy a good cry, but I hate that sticky feeling of loosing myself from the rabbit-hole of pathetic wallowing. So, instead of sampling the salt cakes at a pity party of one, I have decided to channel my frustration and melancholy into a list. I promise it won’t be syrupy and gross—even in this state I’m a classy chick.
Things I miss from home:
- my fantastic group of friends, especially my Baum Shelter and Psych Ward ladies.
- my too-cool-for-school sardonic brother
- college football
- wearing sleeveless tops and shorts
- my grandma
- salad I don’t have to double-check for safety
- being able to see everyone’s hair
- my mom and dad
- working gutters (picture from Lauren’s awesome blog, Snapshots from Um al-Donia)
- breathing space on public transit, especially during peak hours
- talking to a guy without the question of whether he might want to use me for a visa ever crossing my mind
- autonomy: knowing how to get places and being able to do it myself, or being able to just go the hell home if I’d rather loaf
- not feeling awkward about my religious beliefs i.e. my complete denial of the existence of a god, my Buddhist upbringing, and my distrust for monotheism in general. I miss it being a non-issue or the kind of things you say at parties to make people think you’re deep and introspective.
- tap water I can drink without spending hours on the toilet afterward
- therapy dogs at Pitt on Tuesdays
- being able to pet animals in general without concern that they probably have diseases or parasites
- Holiday decorations in the predictable jack-o-lanterns and ghosts to turkeys and cornucopias to santa and snowflakes sequence. As much as I complain every year about how Christmas seems to be coming earlier and earlier in retail, I actually really miss it now that there is none of that around.
- people not yelling things at me on the street in broken English
- fall foliage
- College parties
- late-night campus food
- not being stared at for my looks
- understanding the majority of what is said around me
- my dog
Ok. Droop-fest over! On to new things.